me fantasizing about the life i should be living

Stop waiting for life to be easy. Stop hoping for somebody to save you. You don't need another person lying to you. Things don't all add up, but you are resilient. Face some hard facts and you could have an incredible life.

how i sleep at night knowing that i'll literally never find love or happiness and god not only has plans for me but also doesn't exist and my pathetic existence isn't even a blip on the timeline of human history